its been while....

so i havent posted anything for quite awhile. alot has happened since the last time but im not gonna sit and go through everything. it would first take far too long and second be way too emotional. well im now living in orem going to school at uvu. im going into the nursing program, hopefully. boys are still way stupid. well girls are too....everyon is stupid now a days, making really dumb descions. choices that could get them into alot of trouble. so im dealing with that. my best friend is getting divorced and im trying to be an emotional support from afar.....that is really really hard to do. you should try it! but jess i love you!:) and the biggest thing that happened was on july 9, 2009 at about 2300 (11pm for you who dont speak military time) my oldest brother jason was in a fatal motorcycle accident. he was killed instantly. wow thats hard to write even to think about. my family is trying to deal with that. we arent doing real well at all. all of us are pretty much clinically depressed but we are trying to trudge through it. one happy note is all the fam the whole clan, we are going to georgia for thanksgiving. mainly because none of us wanna be here in utah doing the same thing we always did when jason was here. it would be too painful! but that should be really fun. it will be krissy and jeh's first ride on an airplane!!! but enough excitement for one blog, im exhausted. ive been up since 430am this morn....and im pooped. ill write more of my adventures later......good night.

the last bit of my life thus far....

so i have been way busy busy! studyin, workin, and just have a boring life.... im getting all ready for school this fall. im meeting up with my new advisor monday. i am way nervous and such, but i think it will be good. but work is dumb i dont really like it at all. i wish i didnt have to go today...i have to work with a really dumb girl...blah i will probably have to do EVERYTHING!!!! literally!!! but oh well.....i miss all my friends. it seems like the majority of them have left me. gotten married havin kids or just left like to anither place. i guess thats life but i still feel stuck in the same place....will i ever get to break out and move? i dont know. :( but good news i took my phlebotomy midterm last monday got an 84% which means cuz she grades on the curve....."A" for me!!!! :) yeah for me! pretty proud of myself. so my freind who is becoming a photographer did some pictures of me i am gonna try put on here....we will see if i can get it. but i gotta run get going for work!!! loves to all! if anyone wants to play, CALL ME!!!! :)

hella bad night!

so i had a hell of a bad night! i went to work yesterday. work was way way busy i did so much paperwork its not even funny! after work i came home and had to put my grandpa to bed. between putting him to bed one of my guy freinds was texting me and i was trying to read my phlebotomy book. so i get him to bed then end up staying up till 3am doing phlebotomy homework! blah!!! but most of its done now!!! so then i took a sleeping pill to help me sleep since i was up so late. well then i aparently did a bunch of things i dont really remember doing...however i remember i did throw up!!! yuck! so i ended up sleeping on the floor in the bathroom till i dont know like 6am or 7am. then i went and got in my bed... now i feel kinda sick and like hung over almost. it sucks!!! but so now i gotta go to work again today in a bit. blah blah blah! so that was my horrendous night. .............. so on to a new and happy subject. i am going to uvu!!! its my final decision. im hopefully gonna move down there at the end of this summer (aug somtime probably) and go into their nursing program. i feel really good about this i am really excited that i feel so good about this. i started the process yetserday. i applied and such got my transcript sent off. there is alot to do but now i have a heading ill be excited to do it! but i thought i would just let you all in on that. however i am gonna go eat cuz my stomach is about to explode if it doesnt get some food!!!! see ya on the flip side!! :)

the weekend in a nutshell...;0

okay, so a bunch has happened to me in the last little bit. just been workin and workin my brains out...on friday night brady asked me to go to a bon-fire with him, so i was running around work like a chicken with my head cut off...but i made it! the bon fire was really fun! i met alot of brady's freinds and others. well then ben (a guy i dated not too long ago) showed up. akward!!! he woudnt really talk to me or anyone. he just sat there are stared at me and brady! we tried to talk to him but he kinda ignored us...oh well. so brady and i ended up going for ice cream and going to a midnight movie afterwards. it was really fun! we saw state of play....good movie!!:) and ice cream is always a winner in my book! so bi ended up not getting home till about 4am the next morning!!! crazy!!! oh well i was way tierd though. so on saturday brady came to willard to pick me up at my grandpas (where i live). i showed him around brigham. it was a way fun day! so first we went to the golden spike, kinda a long drive but it was way way fun! we took lots of pictures and such! after the golden spike we went to the bird refuge but it was closed already....bummer. after that we went to the train station here in brigham. that was so fun! even though it had just closed. :( boo! we played around outside on a extra train car and took pictures and played at an old mill next door. it was really fun....then we went to eat at idle isle..yummy food! stuffed ourselves to the brim. we decided to go see the movie knowing while we let our food settle. weird movie. he didnt like it at all, but i thought it was okay. i wouldnt recommend it though. so after the movie we went to get the famous calls drive season salt fries and rootbeer float!!!! yum im getting hungery just thinkin about it! we went back to my house and looked at the pictures, then he had to go home. all in all really awesome amazing day!!! we had a blast!!! sun...i went down to lehi to my cousins homecoming. it was fun. i got talking to my aunt who works at hospitals down there as a nurse....i talked to her about going down to uvu and she was telling me how great of a place it is! she said look into it and that she could keep an eye out for places for me to live, hook me up with some work, and pretty much everything. maybe my life is just about to fall into place after all. :) its about time!!! ha ha! but no really the more i look into uvu the better i feel about it. its still in the decision mode but its lookin good. but now you are all caught up a bit more i gotta run do some homework. so ta ta for now! :)

an update on me......

so i have some new updates to let ya all in on. first i am seriously a work-a-holoc! i have worked this whole week every night! plus i am such a great freind i am working today on my only day off for my friend!!! so i am continuing to work every single day till mon (i have off for class) then continuing to work all next week too! well i gotta have money to pay these bills. blah being an adult sucks sometimes. but anyways, so this week i got an email from an old roomie. she is getting married and wants me to come to her reception. then the next day or so my friend at work (the one im working for today) she got engaged! its not even the end of april and two engaged already...i dont know if im gonna be able to handle this summer. agh! so i mean thats kinda difficult for me to deal with. its hard because i had that, i had it all and it was like ripped from me. not to mention i really want it again. but really i am happy for those girls its just hard though. but so i told you guys all about my date with brady the guy i went last sat and played on the jiroscope. he is such a fun guy! well we have kinda been talking and such....he wants to bring me with him to the knolls sat! for you who dont know what the knolls are...(i didnt:)) um its this big motro bike race by the salt flats. so he was all excited and invited me and then he was like oh crap i gotta make sure i can bring you. cuz he is going with his freind, silly boy! so im hopin to do that. it would be way fun! also dallas the boy i got into trouble with when we were dating...(we are JUST FREINDS) he wants to go golfing here soon. i think we are gonna go sat if the thing with brady doesnt work out or mon if i go to the salt flats with brady! so that should be interesting...ill let you know how it goes! but i better run go eat and things...stay turned to find out if im going to the salt flats with this awesome guy:) .,.....or not!:( *heart you*

it's raining

its raining its pouring the old man is snoring......i love the rain. i just hope we dont start having floods!!! ha ha! but really, ive had an alright couple of days. i thought id get on an catch everyone up. (well the two or three that reas this :)) anyway, so thurs was the day that guy broke up with me. saturday i went out on a date with a cute guy that is a pretty good friend. it was so fun! just what i needed to the "t"! so we met up at his house in providence (loganish) and went to juniper take out to eat. if you ever go to juniper...try the fried green beans in fry sauce! im tellin ya sounds gross but its so amazing its ridiculous! so after that we went and saw the movie "taken". it was kinda funny cuz we went to the same theather my ex and i went on our first date to also....just a funny random thought. so the movie was awesome!!! it was really fun. we sat and joked through the whole thing. then we went to wendys to get a frosty to share! yeah i love frosties!!!:) then he wanted to take me to his work to show me something. he works at renegade sports, whish has these crazy amusement rides there. so he shower me how to ride the jiroscope. for those of you who dont know what that is....its this three ringed ride where you are strapped in the middle of the smallest ring and the let the rings go and you twirl all over. it was so so fun!!!! i call it the twirly thing!:) after i got so dizzy i couldnt walk....we went a bought me tights for church the next day at walmart of course...where else would we go!? um, after walmart we went diggin and such up providence canyon! so so fun!!! we were bumpin and jumpin everywhere! i havent laughed that hard in a long time!!! but so after that it was time to go to my brothers wher i was staying that night. but that is my new development in the dating world... however i need to run go do some things before work, so ta ta for now!!!

alright... :)

okay so to everyone who read my previous blog...thank you for letting me go on and on and on about how i really am angery with guys in general. but i am feeling much better today. :) i have alot to do....i have work and lots of homework i havent even started on all week! i have to clean the house and watch my grandpa..since my parents still arent back from st george. i have a million little projects to do....and i gotta figure a way to get a new phone cuz mine is being really dumb!!! grrr! oh well....its working at the moment. but i better run, i have lots to do and not much time to do it! stay turned to see what happens next in my crazy soap opera life!! he he!:)

guys suck!!!

okay so welcome to my rant page (as my friend jess calls it!) so guys suck! let me clarify....most guys suck! so i have been divorced about 9 months and in that time i have dated quite a few guys....most ending up to be excatly oppisite of what i believed them to be! some wont talk to me...others we are only on a text message basis. then sometimes i come across one that acts like he is 12 years old still and ignores me because he doesnt have the balls to come and talk to me up front! so this last guy i talk of is the one im focusing on in this post. boy, does he make me wanna sream!!! we met through a freind, he lives in idaho and so we dont really see each other much. well everything seemed fine he was all sweet and such. came to visit about two weekends ago. we had a blast! but after he left he started acting weird. i could tell something was up. he stopped talking to me almost completly. he stopped anwsering my phone calls he stopped texting me almost completly. i just could not figure it out. i kept feeling like something was wrong but couldnt quite get my finger on it!!!! aghh!!!! well yesterday... nothing from him at all. when i got on facebook last night i found out from one of his many freinds that are girls...he went out to dinner with a chick the other night!!! and he had LIED to me about it!!!!!! he had also told me this particular girl was crazy and he didnt want to talk to her!!! what a liar!!!! aghh!!!! grr! i do not do well with being lied to!!! note to everyone: DON'T EVER LIE TO ME!!!!! i may come back and rip your head off! well so i call him...phone turned off! he was totally ignoring me!!! grr!!! so this morning i get a text from him saying sorry i just dont feel anything for you anymore!!! he broke up with me over text!!!!!! how incriedably childish is that?!!! come on! if he had a problem with me he should have just told me yeah it would have ripped my heart out but at least he wouldnt be ignoring me and acting like a kid! then he deletes me off his facebook.....well all i have to saya is good riddens!!!!! i hate you! you pompous lying deciving bastard!!!! no wonders your divorced! your an jerk! ................so thats my rant for the day.......stay turned to see what happens next!:)

school...

so its about 3am and i am just sitting here playing on my blog. thinking about the descions i have to make here soon. i have been looking into going to college of southern idaho, but i am also thinking now about idaho state university....what would be bast for me...i just wish all these hard choices could be made for me! you know? like who to marry. what do go into. what kindaa job to get that i would enjoy. where to live...just little things. but i guess i better head to bed...goodnight:)

MY BLOG!!!

wow! so its 1:15am and i am sitting at my laptop creating a blog!!! how funny! i was at work forever today! no one came in at 1030pm when i was off.....so i ended up staying till 1230am till someone came!!! few!!! i am tierd! but just wanted to see how this works...maybe ill go to bed soon. and maybe not!!! we will see!:>